Breathe Evenly- Chapter 2
It turns out finding Kay was not as easy as Britt portrayed. After 3 weeks without any update, Marc starts to curse himself and Britt for getting his hopes up. On this day after work, he decided to wait for Britt at the female locker room door.
“So has your friend at the informatics bureau give you any updates?” Marc didn’t want to appear too hopeful when Britt walks through the door, freshly showered.
“Getting desperate are we?” Britt playfully pushed at Marc’s shoulder, but then turned serious. “It turns out your lover is more elusive than we thought. During the past year he has transferred 3 times, from Ludwigsburg to Stuttgart to Augsburg now to Munich, which he just arrived less than 2 weeks ago. I know what unit he is at now, but cannot tell you his address. His current address on file is still one at Stuttgart, obviously out of date.”
Marc is puzzled. Why on earth would Kay transfer so many times? What is he running away from? With a pang of guilt, Marc realized how little he knew of Kay’s, his family, or his life.
“What does that mean?”
“What that means. Is that if you want to find your lover and talk sense into him, you will have to transfer to his unit or at least in the same building his unit is at. ” Britt continued. “Of course, you can creepily wait in front of the building hoping to catch him as he is coming and leaving from work. But stalking in front of police station cannot end up well.”
Marc shook his head, ” you want to get me fired?”
Britt shrugged her shoulders. “The other option is to wait for the address to be updated on the record. My friend said that could take up to 6 months. By then, Kay might have moved again already. ”
Marc scratched his head. No, he did not want to wait for another 6 months risking Kay running away from him again. But transferring to another unit was not what he had in plan.
“Transferring to another unit and moving to Munich though? That’s a big step. What about Sebastian?” Marc was not sure.
“Marc, Munich is two and half hours from here by train, even faster driving. You can make a trip once every 2 weeks.”
What Britt said was true. Trips to Munich was definitely not taxing at all. However, for someone who resists change and adventure as much as he can, Marc was still reluctant to entertain that idea. ” But transferring units cannot be that easy. ” Nevertheless, the thought of never seeing Kay again is eating him slowly.
Britt winked at him, “you are in luck, mate. My friend said that particular riot control unit serves the most dangerous area of Munich. They have lost 6 people over the past 3 months due to various reasons. They are desperately in need of people. Transferring there would be a piece of cake.”
Hearing about the danger of Kay’s unit automatically arose the protectiveness in Marc. He became worried for Kay’s safety. He knew Kay is a great police officer and will be able to look after himself. However, the need to be by Kay’s side suddenly became insurmountable. To protect Kay, or just to hold his hand and face danger together.
Transferring was just as easy as Britt predicted. All paperwork had gone through within 2 weeks. Marc even received a pay raise as enticement to seal the deal.
Marc packed all his belongings, which consisted of merely 2 suitcases and 2 boxes into is Volkswagen Golf. Before hitting the road for Munich, he stopped by to see Bettina and his son Sebastian.
Sebastian is growing fast, now able to crawl everywhere and walk a few steps. To Marc, his gabbled “Papa” is the sweetest music to his ears.
While Sebastian is pre-occupied with the toy his father just brought him, Marc glanced over at Bettina.
“Bettina, I am moving to Munich.” Marc said slowly.
Bettina stared at him, seemingly surprised.
“I will still come by every 2 weeks to see Bastian as we agreed upon. ” Marc continued.
“Why?” Bettina interrupted him. “Why are you moving to Munich all the sudden Marc?”
Marc avoided Bettina’s stare and focused his attention back to his son. “I want a new start.”
“Don’t bullshit me Marc. ” Bettina walked closer to him. As if a sudden realization came upon her, she started nodding her head. “You are going after him, aren’t you?!”
Marc looked down to the floor and remained silent.
“Are you Marc?!” Bettina raised her voice.
Marc sighed. He knew this was going to be difficult. He couldn’t ask Bettina not to be angry with his decision. ” Bettina, I know you would be angry. I am sorry I couldn’t give you want you deserve. I can never ask you to forgive me, but I am very thankful that you allow me to see Bastian. I will be forever indebted to you. If you need anything in the future, just call or text. I will do my best.”
“Hosenscheisser,” Bettina muttered under her breathe. She stared at Marc long and hard for what seemed like hours. Marc shifted between his feet uncomfortably, debating to stay until he could say proper bye to Bettina or just kiss Sebastian and run away.
Finally, Bettina sighed. ” Just as well. I am moving in with Thomas, just haven’t gotten around to tell you.”
This is Marc’s turn to be startled. Looks like they both have news today. Marc knew Bettina had been dating Thomas for about 9 months. He had met Thomas during one of his visits to Sebastian. He seemed like a gentle man and great with Sebastian. Marc knew Bettina puts Sebastian as top priority and would not agree to move in with him if she didn’t think Thomas would get along with her son. But the idea of his son living with a strange man still made him uncomfortable. Then again, he was on no grounds to dictate Bettina’s life.
Marc swallowed all his thoughts and managed to smile weakly. “Congratulations Bettina. Thomas is a great guy. I sincerely hope you will be happy.”
Bettina nodded. Her eyes became reddish and watery as if she suddenly became emotional. “He is. I am very lucky to have found him. Especially after what I went through with you.” She smiled too, “Marc, I guess what has passed is past. I know you have been miserable over the past year. I still cannot fully forgive you now, but I probably will with time. ” She looked over and caressed Sebastian’s soft chubby cheeks. “After all, you are Bastian’s father and I do need you to be well. So go to Munich and do what you have to do. But his time, please don’t be such a coward about it.”
As if a huge rock had dropped from his shoulders, Marc nodded and grinned. Even years after, he still did not quite understand how Bettina was able to come around what he had done to her. But he was always thankful to have this woman in his life.
Marc awkwardly extended a hand to Bettina. Bettina smiled and came close. She gave him a hug and squeezed his shoulders.
As Marc drove on the stretched highway heading toward Munich, he can’t help to imagine maybe, just maybe, one day, he could bring Kay to meet Sebastian. Of course, Marc chuckled to himself, that is wishing for too much. Right now, the biggest hurdle is to convince Kay to come back to him.